Who is the Kabocha Fashionista?
I’m Nicky. 22. Student. Lifter and Protein Baker 
My diet has done a full circle of eating meat as a child to going vegan to veggie and then now back to meat. I feel that I have a balance of eating everything I love now and love all of the ways that I have eaten for different reasons so now I incorporate them all in my diet.
I have a history of anorexia but am now fully recovered and lead a healthy balanced life. I went vegan in my recovery to overcome my fear of fats and I believe that raw veganism changed my health for the better not only in my recovery from anorexia but also from depression. It will always be a part of my life because of what it did for my health.
I want to send a message out there to everyone struggling with an ED that recovery is possible even when you have been so far down in the depths of the illness that it almost killed you. My illness began when I was just 13 and after years of being hospitalised continuously and being forced into therapies that never worked, suffering with years of depression at the same time, I decided to recover by myself with no help. It was the hardest thing I ever did and will probably ever do, and yes I still struggle with body image, but I can honestly say that I have never felt so free and happy. Recovery is worth fighting for.
Skinny is not and never will be healthy. And in the end it is our health we are playing with in trying to achieve that goal which is very dangerous. Living life to the full leads to happiness, not striving to be something you’re not. We should laugh with friends, explore the world, treat ourselves to something everyday. Life is too short.
I am passionate about lifting now. I guess there’s the whole ‘strong not skinny’ motion going round but feeling strong is such a powerful feeling that I have fallen in love with. I always saw skinny as the ideal but I never felt happy not matter how skinny I got. Now getting ‘strong’ is a much more positive mental attitude and through it I have met many inspirational people and feel like I have so much more positivity and goals in life to keep me healthy mentally.
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oh my gosh, you’re probably the cutest thing I’ve ever seen. Love your bangs!
Where abouts do you do go to uni? I’m doing Fashion retailing in Manchester, so nice to have someone like you to inspire me to stay healthy while studying
Heyy! What’s your email girly and I’ll message you? x
Love your blog! I’ll be coming back!
I wish my hair was as long and thick as yours <3
hey! have you ever been to any of the whole foods in new york city? they’re fantastic! also – have you tried any of the new larabars? <3
GORGEOUS GORGEOUS GORGEOUS <3
You are too freaking adorable! I want your bangs!
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You are the cutest and very strong. I just found your blog and I love it already!
I just found your blog! You are so pretty!! &I love Kashi GoLean cereals too! I eat it everrryday for breakfast with peanut butter. YUM!
You are a total knockout! Love your cute style and I am jealous that you live in the UK. I hope to move to London sometime soon!
I didn’t know what entry to comment on, i’ve been having a right trawl through your blog and its given me so many scrummy food ideas. I love finding other healthy food bloggers in the uk!
Apart from waitrose do you know anywhere that sells kabocha? I really want to try some and in Leeds our waitrose is still new and tiny!
You are SUCH a cute little foodie! Peanut butter and muffin and kabocha loving…living in the uk…age 20…passion for fitness and baking and healthy living…we are verrry alike girl! I am so excited to read more, what a groovy-ass blog!
What a beautiful message you can share about your past with food – thank you so much for sharing your story and your strength
Just stumbled across your blog, and I love it already! You have such a great attitude toward recovery—I totally admire your strength and optimism. I hope to be in recovery one day, too.
Keep fighting!
I love, love, LOVE your fashion! where abouts do you shop and get all your fantastic clothes?
Aw thankyou lovely! I get most of my clothes from Topshop but my other faves are H&M and Zara
love your new about me page!!
Yay for another UK based food blogger! When I read you mention Waitrose and Morissons I was like “OMG!”. Love your style and your attitude towards recovery – will definitely be visiting again soon
Just found your blog and i really love it, it’s great to see a UK based food blogger as I actually have half a chance of finding the mentioned ingredients. Huge respect for overcoming your ED, your strength is amazing and I hope you are incredibly proud of yourself (hope that doesn’t sound patronizing!) I am now following! x
Oh wow,I just came across your blog and immediately knew I’d DEFINITELY come back very,very soon!
Your strength is AMAZING,it’s so great how you deal with recovery and everything! I especially love your attitude towards sugars – I have got a huge problem with that,even if it’s NATURAL fruit sugar/honey/raw cane sugar or the like because I am always afraid of eating “too much” sugars and stuff… You really encourage me to just try it and eat just what I want,no matter how much fruit (sugar) it may be!
And by the way – you’re SUPER pretty,girl!!
Hey Nicky! I came across your blog via the vegan mofo website. I’m 21 and also live in the UK
I love your blog, you have some great recipes. I’ve been vegetarian for a year and a half now (having spent about months of that vegan) and I’m currently eating vegan. I’d love to chat sometime! Where abouts in the UK are you? It’s so rare to find vegans in the UK who are as excited about cooking and healthy eating as you, I love everything about vegan food and shopping for it is addicting won’t you agree 
Here’s the link to my blog: http://hannahalehandra.blogspot.com/ hope you are well.xo Hannah
You are adorable and I love your blog!
Hey Nicky! I just came across your blog this morning and have been totally stalking it all day. I was wondering if you’d be interested in doing a guest post on my blog [matchstickmolly.com]. Email me if you’re interested!
Hey Nicky, just found your blog and I LOVE it! A BIG THANKYOU for trying my tomato breadsticks. Very glad you like them!
Would you like to try a Christmas Pudding? I see that you like dried fruit and TREATS!
Wishing you fantastic health and lots of happiness!
Lisa ;o)
I agree with everything (except the persimmons) – YUM!
Hi petal – I’ve nominated you for the 7×7 Award! http://thisisrocksalt.com/2012/04/18/7-x-7-link-award/
Good morning! Your beautiful! so glad your doing well now and are recovered that just makes me happy
u are so Wonderful I suffered the same ad ya obseesed with food still in Cali we dont nearly have all the UK does! I am so touched by your blog honesty and wonderful ideas. Thank you Blessings,
Your hair looks INCREDIBLE. Could you do a post about how you take care of it?
You’re an inspiration to me <3 Just thought I'd let you know!
Hello!
I’ve been a follower of your blog since almost the very beginning. I too suffer from disordered eating. I’ve let myself become miserable over obsessing about my weight and body image for the last 4 years. I’m so happy though because for the first time in what feels like forever I’m beginning to learn to love and accept myself. I still struggle a lot, and there are times when I couldn’t be more disgusted with myself. But more and more I’m realizing that I’m beautiful the way I am and I’m learning to love this realization and actually kind of enjoy the way my curves give me a feeling feminine empowerment. Letting go of this need to control has slowly brought me greater happiness. I admire you for your strength, especially allowing yourself to find peace with yourself on your own terms. I don’t think I’d be in the mind set I’m in now without the love of my boyfriend. He doesn’t even know about my eating issues but his compassion towards me has made me want to change myself for the better. Anyways… I could go on and on and on… but I guess I’m just writing you now because I felt inspired to do so. And I want to celebrate this very moment with all the young women who have found or are on their way to finding self-acceptance and self-love.
-Anne.
I literally cannot believe that i found your blog again! I’d read your blog since the very beginning, and lost it in a transition period, and now im adding you to my bloglovin reader now
It’s good to have you back!
haha I’m a 3rd year Boston College student ^^