Who is the Kabocha Fashionista?
I’m Nicky. 22. Student. Lifter and Protein Baker
My diet has done a full circle of eating meat as a child to going vegan to veggie and then now back to meat. I feel that I have a balance of eating everything I love now and love all of the ways that I have eaten for different reasons so now I incorporate them all in my diet.
I have a history of anorexia but am now fully recovered and lead a healthy balanced life. I went vegan in my recovery to overcome my fear of fats and I believe that raw veganism changed my health for the better not only in my recovery from anorexia but also from depression. It will always be a part of my life because of what it did for my health.
I want to send a message out there to everyone struggling with an ED that recovery is possible even when you have been so far down in the depths of the illness that it almost killed you. My illness began when I was just 13 and after years of being hospitalised continuously and being forced into therapies that never worked, suffering with years of depression at the same time, I decided to recover by myself with no help. It was the hardest thing I ever did and will probably ever do, and yes I still struggle with body image, but I can honestly say that I have never felt so free and happy. Recovery is worth fighting for.
Skinny is not and never will be healthy. And in the end it is our health we are playing with in trying to achieve that goal which is very dangerous. Living life to the full leads to happiness, not striving to be something you’re not. We should laugh with friends, explore the world, treat ourselves to something everyday. Life is too short.
I am passionate about lifting now. I guess there’s the whole ‘strong not skinny’ motion going round but feeling strong is such a powerful feeling that I have fallen in love with. I always saw skinny as the ideal but I never felt happy not matter how skinny I got. Now getting ‘strong’ is a much more positive mental attitude and through it I have met many inspirational people and feel like I have so much more positivity and goals in life to keep me healthy mentally.
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