Today I’m going to have a small wordy post just to warn you. I shall be back with recipes ASAP I promise
I just wanted to talk about what I’ve been going through in terms of fitness and nutrition recently so that maybe some people can learn from it, relate to it, or just read out of interest. I find that on Instagram you see plenty of girls out there who look strong etc but you don’t see the journey that they’ve gone through to get there. I find myself comparing myself with them a lot…which is probably not a good thing for me. I eat clean, train hard and I think to myself, ‘Why don’t I look like them?!’ but I forget a number of things:
1. Everyone has gone through the journey of changing their body over time to eventually look like that.
2. Change takes time. And I am an impatient bitch who wants things now. I am learning to be patient with my body, keep being consistent with what I do and the changes will be small, but over time they add up.
3. Everyone has a different body shape with different genetics. Some people are fortunate enough to lose fat and gain muscle easier than others…but everyone is capable of doing it, just in different amounts of time.
4. Everyone has different health requirements. My priority has actually been to calm my digestion down because it was the biggest factor hindering any progress from the work I did in the gym or the food I ate. The past couple of weeks it has been the best it has ever been and it feels so much better day to day which to me is such a massive relief. Hopefully this will mean the start of change for me.
5. A major thing that has been stopping my progress has also been my diet intake. Whilst it has been healthy, it wasn’t enough. It kinda sounds silly that I needed to eat more to lose fat but the past week I have been given a set of macros to work towards to make sure I am eating enough and I already feel leaner. I was trying to avoid calorie counting etc because of old habits, but if it means I am eating more then I see it as a good thing in the short term until I get used to how much my body actually needs.
Sometimes my slow progress and body image issues makes me feel like giving up and restricting (which is the most stupid idea ever by the way), but you know what? I love how I live my life right now, I am doing what is right for me with the right people in my life, and in reality, everyone has to go through the process at some point. I may not be 100% happy with my body and still struggle with being bigger than I ever have been, but I am work in progress and I’d rather be healthy and able to enjoy life now than how it was before with an eating disorder because I bloody love food I also have great support from my coach which definitely helps. So if you’re in the same position as me, do not give up. It is about consistency and using the support you can to get you where you want to be